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Spread a Little Love.

This past week, I've learned, in a deeper way, that friends have really rough times too. That when you have someone in your life that has always been a thorn in your toe. But everyone takes it differently. Some people shut away from that person. Some avoid. Some shut themselves out from everyone.

What I think people should do is confront. I'm not saying that I'm a confronting person, but I can be when I'm not in the mood to be pushed around or if someone I care for is being bothered.

Why do people purposely do things anyway? Why do girls have a guy on the hook when that guy truly does care about her? Or the father is such a bully as a kid that he now? Or why a young woman seems so kind to everyone, but treats those who were close as if they meant absolutely nothing?

I think of this and think how I'm so grateful that my closest friends and I can be so open with each other.

If I work on spreading kindness and not a bully to others, I challenge you to do the same.

Acceptance.

My mom told me that I need to get on more and update. So here I am.

My birthday was in February. I'm 18 now! Nothing changes much other than the fact that I can AMA which is beastly. My day was good. Nathan Got me a HUGH balloon, made me cupcakes and a scarf. It was great. After school, since I didn't have dance rehearsals, one of my best friends William and I went to Wendy's. He wasn't feeling well so he took me home. We decided we are going to go to Monterey for our birthday's.

Simba is working hard on his training. The Speechies and Drama geeks love him! Unfortunately during on of rehearsals, he hit his head somehow and now he has a huge gash on it. No fun at all, but he's one tough cookie.

My seizures have decrease tremendously! I'm so excited about that. Now when I have one, I'm much more sore than I used to.

Heather is doing so well with fulfilling her dreams as a hockey announcer.

Mom needs to go out on a week long vacation. She needs it! Any takers?

Well times are changing as well as the season. Graduation is coming up and nervous/exciting about it. I know I'm heading to Delta and catching a ride with Caleb.

He says "No dogs."

I say "Too Bad"

He disagrees "I'm going to get a bug for he can't fit in it."

I laugh and say "Then he is sitting on your lap."

He chuckles "Then we crash and die because of your dog."

She comments "No, because of your lack of acceptance."

Welcome, 2010.

I haven't been on, in forever. I know. I haven''t done that well of a job with this at all. But I've been so busy with training Simba and working on my Senior Paper that a blog? Wasn't top priority.

With 2010 here, I look back and see what has happened in 2009 that has really changed my life.

1. I hooked up my Best Friend, with a friend of mine. It didn't hurt that bad till I knew he was gone and I never get to hang out again. I learned that friends are rare, especially the best ones.

2. Dating is very good. Don't rush into a relationship, just because you have a chance to get into one. You must really think of what you want. I dated a guy because we made a deal to date for a month. I ended it. 1. Because so much was going on and it was dificult. 2. I put a close friend of mine in the somewhat same position that I was in with my Best friend and my friend. was hurt and I didn't want to put her in the same feeling I was.

3. Losing a friend is a really hard thing to go through in your teenage years. Especially is you have history.

I'll even tell you why.

I dated a guy named *John. I went to EFY with him. Stayed in touch because he was awesome! He took me to his first Prom as his first date. We stayed in touch and got closer and we ended up dating and getting closer. These past 6 months of 2009, he stopped starting conversations so I had to initiate the conversation. Long story short: Our friendship is no more. Its one thing I would take back in a heart beat. I don't regret things, but that I do.

4. Backstabbing is NOT okay. I never done it personally but being lied to is a definite No No in my eyes. You keep the secrets and go straight to the source.

5. School is more important than you know. You learn so much from school. Eve id you think its pointless. In geometry I learned to have patience. Theater taught me to spread my horizons. English, life is going to be tough but you got to laugh it through.

But most of all, Your Family and Friends are what makes you, YOU.

I know this is supposed to be a blog about how my seizures have changed my life, but I know that many things have changed it as well.

Simba has really changed my life.

Last Friday I was in the Theater for a Drama day for 3rd and 4th grade kids. Simba was acting up already and I knew it was weird. He started to bite the ground! I had to stand aside from it and just watch. Once Simba started to bark, I had to go. I left Nathan and AJ with all the kids. I tried to make it to the office but I couldn't make it so I ran into the Teachers Lounge.

I woke up with Harley & Anthony [security guards], and My VP. They told me that Simba stod over me and protected from anyone to come near. He collected everything I dropped and put it in a pile and when I woke up, he laid flat on top of me and growled at anyone who came close till I said it was okay.

I'm grateful for the year ahead.

Checklist:

-Graduation

-Job Search

-Simbas Graduation

-My year with Nathan.

Drama is going to happen Naturally. But I'll learn something from everything I go through.