The New Do!

So as many have seen, I have cut my hair. I was honestly nervous but I knew it was time. 

So after Jons wedding, I was going to have it cut on Monday, but the people who were going to, were too busy so they couldn't. So that whole day was with Lexi. We had oodles of fun. 

Anyway, so on Tuesday Mom, Sonja, Aunt Cindy, and I all went to San Diego to take Jeni and her youngin Daniel back to their home.

It was a great ride up. Got to listen to music and talk.. I slept and chewed gum which was sooo STUPID of me. 

Within the last hour of driving, my jaw was killing me. It showed that my spacer was dug into my gums by chewing gum. It was terrible. Luckily when we got to Jeni's place, she had medicine and went and got some numbing thing. It definitely helped.

I woke up the next morning looking like this..

Try going to  the Zoo that day. I was glad I wasn't there for checking out guys.. I bet I got some of their attention though haha.

We later went to the temple and had major fun there. I don't ha

ve the greatest photos.. Jeni does.

Later that day, Jeni had made an Appt. with a woman in her ward who cuts hair. And I was super nervous but excited. So heres those details.

The next day, we went to the beach and it was great. It was majorly windy, no doubt. But getting sand down your shirt, that windy tan or if your Sonja, you get burnt even when you have loads of sunscreen on. Haha. It was great. 

Friday, we had to go home.. We really didn't want to go.. It was sad but  we had a great time with Jeni, Daniel, and Dennis. 

You'd think I'd Crumble?

Alrighty. So this is just a short and sweet Blog post.

Get over it. Life is too short to get butt hurt over the simplest things.. Rock you life for it won't crumble on you!

Listening to -I Will Survive- Gloria Gaynor.

Locks of Love decision.

So I have recently decided that I am going to cut my hair. I'm going to cut probably 12 inches off and donate it to Locks of Love. Many have probably heard of this association but if not, its a organization where they accept hair for kids who have hair loss for any reason. 

I've done it before and it was great. But what made my decision was when I was in Stanford and my neighbor was a little boy with major Cancer issues and I saw all these kids without hair and I knew someone would be grateful for it. So I have decided to chop it off and donate.. Its a great experience so ... I can't wait.

I'll let you know how it goes. And I'll put up pictures.. =]

If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living. 

-Gail Sheehy

Red Dots. Warning!

Well To update everyone on life! I have had.. 15 seizures since mid-February. Its been a rough ride but Knowing its all from stress.. Kinda doesn't work for me. 

But I went to my doctor Feb 26 to see if there is anything else that was needed to be done and such. All she said is that I should see a psychiatrist to talk about everything like I did with Dr. McGourgeous. I see no point because I let everything out. I've been trying very hard to not keep it to myself. 

Like I talked to my friend Caleb [My best Friend/Ex] about the new relationship he is in.. He knows that I don't approve of it BC We are too young to get serious.

I don't know how hard I could stress on that. I've learned from it and noticed that, Yes. You do learn things about that one person. Or that he may have something that you wouldn't or would want in your future spouse, but you could do that from dating as well.. 

Anyway, But I confronted it and feel better from it rather than keeping it in. I encourage many to do so.. Let your feelings out! Don't keep it to yourself.. Let it out..Or do yoga =]

But this is just as a teenage girl. Teenage girl with feelings. 

I was asked to Prom! Whoop! Well it was more as I-was-asked-last-year-but-forgot-then-remembered. Pretty awesome I might add. So that's the latest news.

Oh Wait. OK so this is just free willing and something to put out there.

So On Saturday I had to work at the speech and debate tournament for my school. It was fun, but being tired kinda makes it a drag, you know? But I said 'Hi' to all my teammates and to those who I've become friends with for the past 2 years. And once it was time to start working, I was there. 

Again, tiredness sucks and for me it does extremely because for some reason it shakes out of me. So I see the Red Dots and I went and got my friend John and we went into this area where no one goes. Its like a dead zone. And once I was got myself together, John was pale white! All Honesty, He warned me that it would be hard for him to see me go through it. I've never seen one but I think I'm manly enough to handle it =]

So we got back in there and I didn't want the Lady (Cory) to know. She would of had me stop working and sleep but I couldn't. Its a curse. So I continue working till I had to sit. Its hard to pretend you hadn't had one. [*side note* When I came home from Stanford, I had 'secret seizures' which I know was stupid but if you think about it, That's what I'll have to do when I'm older if I'm still working with these pesters.]

So I went outside and tried to sleep. SO didn't work BC later my friend Doug and Bro. Hanson came out and checkup on me.. So Sleeping mission was aborted.

Eventually I was tired and moody that I needed to go home before I hurt or go all black girl on someone. Mom and Heather came and got me and I lost my voice! Mom probably thought it was a miracle.

Later though, Mom wanted me to go to the Hockey Game BC I hadn't gone in about 3 weeks. Apparently her co-workers and bosses missed all the excitement I gave them.. They should watch T.V. That's all I'm saying.

But Anyway, I was talking to Heather and we were walking around outside and there was this guy there who walked past us and I whispered to Heather "If I ever talk to him, I am going to name him Chico". Later on Mom introduced us and He hung around Heather and I till we were inside the arena. So remember Chico. 

I went up to my little area that I always sit in and watched the opening and everything. OMG Not even 5 minutes into the game, I can't feel my legs. I'm like "Oh Fetch. (and yes, I say fetch)". So I call Katie (Awesome Boss) and I'm telling her that I need help. [its hard to get to the ground safely] and I call Heather. So Katie comes and practically drops me on the ground. She might not have, but it felt like it.

So I wake up to some gorgeous faces. This time, the arena got some cuties for EMTs haha. They helped me up and checked my blood sugar. 68. My blood Sugar was 68. I just ate! It was far too low and they wanted me to eat this glucose goopy stuff. OMH It was disgusting. Not even joking. They asked if I wanted it through the needle and I was all for it. That's how bad it was. Finally someone said give her candy. I said that before hand.

So we went into the first aid room and got to talk to them and such like They are both married. One (Philippe)had a child out of wed lock then later married that woman and then divorced. Married again and much happier. The other guy (Brian) was a newly wed to his high school sweetheart.. How cute!!

Later I was much better and decided to go back in the arena and mom stayed with me. Here comes Chico seeing how I was but he didn't know of my seizure.. Mom told him.

Time passed and mom and I decided to take back the wheel chair I was in. I didn't want to wait for the elevator after dropping the chair off so I went up the stairs.

Ha ha I will not forget their faces. Philippe was not happy I was walking around. He was like What are you doing? And Mom said that I wanted to walk. Brian was teasing me BC I was getting trouble. Haha. 

I sat in a near by chair by some friends that we made by Heather. Patrick is a boy who is Mentally ill and also epileptic. Very hard. His parents take care of Heather and I and always say Hi. So we sat by them and All of the sudden Red Dots start Poppin' up and I grab mom and Get to the ground. 

I wake up to a nightmare of a face name Philippe. Not too happy with me. I found it amusing. But I had to go back to that room with that wheelchair. Ugh! Couldn't get rid of it. So Then Chico starts texting me. He's telling me that he's there for me and such.. I was thinking to myself "You just met me, Why are you if saying this? What?" 

I tell him I'm going to sleep and Hello Sunday!

I'm feeling sore obviously but still all good. I was only going BC 2 of my AWESOME friends were speaking. Katie and Aunt Cindy. So I'm sitting with my mom. I hadn't eaten and that's not good. I'm always scared that when I don't eat I'll become Anorexic or whatever. I had a headache and went into the Mothers lounge and seized. Its not as thrilling as it sounds. So I wake up and just lay there. There wasn't any point of making movement. Then I hear sirens. I sure popped up and such. Mom went out and they passed through. We decided to go home. No point in staying when you have a mingraine. 

Chico is tes\xting me through-out all of this. I know this may sound mean and such but I didn't really want to hear from him. I was tired and he's telling me that He felt this special connection with me and he would love it if we went out.. OMG TOO fast! I'm only 17. I'm Mormon which means I have standards which you don't reach. Finally I told him "I am too young to get serious and settle down. Man are you sure your not a sprinter for the Olympics? You move so fast!" I had help from Heather =]] 

So he backed off.. I know it was mean but he wouldn't get it.. I feel guilty but I'm teaching myself to let things out and not keeping it in.. =] 

Sex, Drugs, and Rock 'n' Roll ... Details!

So I finally got my picture uploaded to my computer so youcan see my turban and such! Lucky you! But lets start from where we left off..

So I went to Stanford. It was actually really boring when I first went there. Mom and I had to wait for such a long time. I was so hungry! Ha. So we met with this consultant about questions we had and where we would be.

She said that they will be gluing the chords to my head sense I'm going to be slepping and it could easily slip off if not. So they also had to wrap my head with gauze and some sticky stuff.

 She told me that We would be in the Cancer and Bone Narrow Transplant area because they just got some new rooms. 

We finally got called in and go to our room. Mom and I got lost bc we had no idea we would be in there.. [I wasn't really paying attention too much]. But we got in there and I met my advisor or something. I'm going to name her Marge [I don't remember her name]. She asked us a bunch of questions. Some about the family. Michael [sperm-donor.. aka Father]. My "Romantic" Friend [More details later]. My health wise. School. Friends. She wanted full on details.

Later she asked my mom to leave, and I kinda got worried because I did know what was going to happen! I was thinking full body search in case of cell phone and iPods. But no. It was just about my Social Life. She called it, "Sex, Drugs, and Rock 'n' Roll".

You obviously know what kind of questions are asked so I won't get into details with that one haha But then the "Tech" ladies came in and started working on putting the chords in.

The day went on and I then found out that I had

 to be sleep deprived. They wanted to see if that would cause a seizure. So that night I watch "Definitely, Maybe" and "Meet the Robinsons". I can  honestly say that, that was a hard night. 

Next day, I met my doctor. ... I don't remember his name but I did meet him and he said that I was going to meet the psychiatrist and talk and everything. At first I was like "I think I handle my seizures well enough to not talk about them, but whatever floats your boat." but no, he just wanted to see what was really going on.

That Doctor, Doctor Shaw. I remember him like it was yesterday! He was gorgeous, no joke! Like if you have seen "The Mentalist", he is the main guy! But shorter hair. He has an amazing accent! It New Zealand/England/South America. OMG.. it was amazing just to hear him ask questions and such.. Ugh! haha.

Anyway, he asked me what was going on with life. How was the family. The Fiance. My Romantic Life.. [I told him that this guy was my boyfriend instead of explaining dating and such..]. Schooling. My thoughts on my seizures. When My last one was. Why I was mad. He was more into the detail than Marge.. And thats saying alot. He encouraged me to express how I felt instead of keeping things in.. I'm still working on that one..

Him, my doctor, and Marge wanted to do this hypnosis on me to see if I have a seizure. I thought that I was going to spill my most inner secrets to the world! Its not like anyone would be suprised bc I told Dr. Shaw.. {I'm changing his name to McGorgeous.} . So I told McGorgeous everything like my past and such. My mom knows alot.. BUt a girl has some secrets to keep, ya know?

So we went to the hypno stuff and turns out I had the most mildest one out of all of them.. Thats like probably over 80 seizures.. That one just had to come then. So I slept afterwards and everything.

Apparently I don't have epileptic seizures.. But I have non-epileptic seizures enduced by stress. Not many people I know are too happy with that diagnosis but at least I have one.

THe next day, I was able to go home. I was so happy! They took out my chords.

I got to eat really good food while waiting for Jon and Becky to come pick mom and I up. 

I texted everyone and sent pictures of my bordem for they new I was out.

I was bored. So heres an extra pic =]] enjoy!!